Something you should know…
Before you roll your eyes and flip your hair at my self-loving crusade, understand that at one point in time I had no where near the level confidence I posses now. Believe me when I say at times I still struggle and I always will. I will say it again, knowing that you are beautiful, handsome, sexy, hot, etc. does not mean you are vain or conceited. It means that you love and appreciate yourself. People can tell you that you are gorgeous all day long BUT you have to believe that you are gorgeous. You have to allow yourself to love yourself. Your own happiness and worth is not gauged upon what people say around you or how they make you feel. Happiness and worth are internal feelings that each of us posses and some are still struggling to find. Granted, everyday isn’t perfect and it’s okay to have days where you feel like you hate the world. All I’m saying is…
Just be yourself, no one can resist that…
Don’t spend hours trying to make yourself like someone else because in the end you will be dissapointed because you can’t be anyone but yourself. Learn to love yourself, rely upon yourself, and remember you create your own happiness.
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“The Night Circus” is my all time favorite book. Erin Morgenstern is a great writer and her words are entrancing.
Writing was my first lover…
I have been writing since I was 11 years old. My mother passed away shortly after my 11th birthday and I needed an outlet. My 5th grade teacher gave me a journal and a stuffed monkey who I deemed “Mr. Monkey”. Just a side note, I slept with that monkey until I was 18 and now my son sleeps with it. I started writing in that journal as soon as I got it and I haven’t stopped writing.
I write words as if they are blood seeping onto paper. My heart, soul, thoughts, desires, everything comes out onto paper.
My mother passing left my world shattered in a million pieces and fucked me up in more ways than I care to realize. For some reason, death has been a constant passenger in my car and takes a piece of me each time. However, I must say there is a silver lining. I must say, if I had to go through everything I have gone through again to get to this very moment, I would do it in a heart beat. From my mother passing I learned that you never, not once, take the life you were blessed with for granted. You savor every single moment you are presented with good and bad. No matter how bad you think your life is, trust me, it could be so much worse. I am 24 and felt like I have lived and endured more than what one human being should have to endure in their lifetime. I know that you must always, always have relentless perseverance with whatever challenge you are faced with. You don’t give up because that is too damn easy. You keep fighting until the very last breath escapes your lips. That right there, is what will give you life.
My mom and I
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Me laughing like a school girl at my friend while we were waiting in line for our college graduation to begin. This was one of many gratifying moments in my life. Quite honestly there were days I didn’t think I would make it. I just kept pushing through and doing what I had to do to make it. People keep asking me “What are you going to do now that you have graduated?” I always look at them blankly and say “What am I going to do? This is only the beginning, I will never be done educating myself”. I love to learn because I feel as though learning something new feeds not only my mind but my soul. I still have to get my Bachelor’s and my Master’s and until July 13, 2013 that was but a dream. Now I see getting them as an attainable goals. When you are at the starting line you can’t see the finish line but you can envision it. However, once you get a glimpse of that finish line you push yourself and wonder what more you could do after you cross it. Getting my associates degree helped me realize that regardless of what goes on (at times I had a lot going on) I can do it and as Rob Dydrek says “You have to make your own luck”. From going to school and meeting new people countless doors and opportunities have opened up for me and I am forever grateful for that. So my friends, this is only the beginning of endless possibilities…
At this point in time, my feet were numb because it was so cold. My hubby insisted I take a picture with my diploma and that I did.
What accomplishments have been gratifying for you?
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It is summer time and I love and adore everything about summer. Yes, I even enjoy the scorching makeup melting heat. The fashion during the summer is so bright, bold, and beautiful.
Speaking of bold, have you guys caught onto the crop top trend?! I am pretty sure that many of you have seen the magazines and ads with models laden in crop tops and maxi skirts with their midriff peeking out. I saw them, and I lusted after that look. I saw other women wearing their high waisted shorts and crop tops and thought to myself “Do I dare be so bold and wear something like that?”. They looked gorgeous and I knew somehow I needed to fit this fashion trend into my wardrobe.
I have never been one to show off too much skin. Growing up my parents were into total modesty and part of that is still ingrained in me. I still hear my parent’s telling me “You don’t show what’s not for sell…”. So you can imagine my dilemma when I was contemplating purchasing a crop top.
Well sugar pops, I went ahead and purchased one and it has been an amazing addition to my wardrobe.
My loves, the bottom line is wear what makes you happy. Not what people tell you to wear or what people expect you to wear. The whole point of fashion is for it to speak volumes without you uttering a single word.
Have you dared wear anything that you normally wouldn’t? If so, what is it?
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